School, Work, Family, Boys, etc.

I've officially registered for the last six classes I need to receive my Associates' Degree in the Spring. Three in the day on Tuesdays and Thursdays, two night classes, and one online class will get me to my first major goal I've worked toward since graduating high school. I've already started my application to BYU, I just need to have my interviews done, to send them my transcripts, then wait. I should know if I've been accepted by the end of February. Can. Not. Wait. I'm so nervous that I won't be able to transfer...

I'll be able to work Mondays, Wednesdays, Fridays and Saturdays and still maintain a social life (hopefully) The question now is, am I going to keep my job at McDonald's? I'm not sure I want to stay there. The once promised promotion still hasn't come, and I'm really frustrated by that. When or if that happens, who knows? All I know is my manager shirts are hidden in a closet in the back of the store. They have MY name on them. I want them. I want to be respected and not looked down upon. I want a raise. Only then may I feel like McDonald's is a decent place to work... but they are pretty good at working around my school schedule, so that's a plus.

I love my family! After the two month mark of my mom's passing I've noticed how well my family works, relatively speaking. My dad is a little more open than he used to be. Every once in a while he opens up time to ask questions or express our feelings, worries, and/or concerns. I really like these times because my dad opens up as well. He tells us the spiritual approach we should take and feelings he has, things he still struggles with, and it makes him seem more human than I've ever seen him. He's also a really funny guy. He jokes and laughs with me and the younger sibs a lot. For example, the other day I was trying to whip my little brother with a damp towel to no avail, so my dad stepped in. He grabbed a towel and showed me how it's done, haha! It was hilarious! When I finally got the hang of how the movement works, he laughed and congratulated me :)

I've started liking a boy I go to school with. We hang out almost every day and he's held my hand, but I've felt guilty. I still feel like I'm committed to Jay who's on his mission, and all I've been doing when I'm with this other boy is comparing him to Jay. It's really horrible, and I know it sounds ridiculous to put off a relationship with a boy who's actually here for one in the DR, but.... I need more time to settle my feelings for Jay down a bit more before I get into the next relationship. So, I'm breaking it off. Tonight.