Thank goodness for friends who don't give up on you even when you want to give up on yourself. Many of you may have noticed me in various pictures with a boy on Facebook. Yes, that is my boyfriend, and he is the most kind boy I could have ever asked to come into my life.
Here at BYU, I have struggled to keep up at work and in my various classes. I find it hard to find motivation to do the reading for my classes, and it definitely shows in my grades, especially on exams. I failed my first test ever a couple weeks ago, and things have seemingly gone downhill from there. I've lost confidence in myself, having been an A student since I can remember. Weber State was never this hard. It's as the acronym goes "We Except Basically Every Retard." Yep, the bad grammar is intentional, because that's how bad of a rep Weber has. If you can't get into any other school around there, you go to Weber. Classes are 10 times easier, and professors don't give you midterms 6 times in the semester.
With 7 classes and working 20 hours a week, I'm exhausted all the time. My supervisor at work had to talk to me about how I'm not picking things up at work, I work slowly, etc, and I had the same talk with my sewing teacher this week. The difference being, my sewing teacher asked if I had disability papers so she could extend deadlines for me. Um, no. I do not have a learning disability, I just don't like that class... But, her also being a cognitive development teacher, she brought up that if my mom had passed away it'd be a different story. Long story short, I bawled in the sewing closet about my mom and all the stresses of school and I now three extra days to finish my sewing project.
I'm on campus for 10 to 12 hours every day, leaving only evenings for me to do homework. It's difficult to cram that much into just a few hours. I get overwhelmed very easily and stress is at an unnatural high. But, with a boy like mine, I've been able to keep my head up. He gets me to think about why I'm here. He makes me laugh when I'm on the verge of tears. And he helps me to remember who I am, and that I have a loving Heavenly Father who's just waiting for me to call on Him.
I'm so thankful for a friend who strengthens me in one of the most stressful times of my life.
7 classes?? no wonder you're so stressed! Finding a balance between work, school and a social life is one of the most difficult things in college, and taking on that many classes in one semester is a little insane. Next time, try and take 4 or 5, there's no need to try and cram everything in all at once, enjoy the time while you're there because you don't only learn in the classroom, my love. Anyways.. you're almost through your first semester and it can only get better from here! I love you!
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